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♥ GUILTY ♥

Ytd after work, meet Ah tng at bugis.
We need to register ourselves regards to govt exam JLPT.
Luckily she agree to register for the exam, if not, left mi alone, doubt i will go for the exam ba..
Anyway, i was so hapi ytd..esp when having dinner, n dad sms mi.
After 20mins, he rang mi..i was so afraid to hear his voice.
so the moment i pick up, i hang up again.
haiz..
ok..my bad.
10mins later, my bro called mi n told mi dat dad cried miserably on the fone, n he want mi to transfer $ to him asap.
Can understand dat bro is anxious bout dad, or i shd said, heart pain dat dad cried.
i agree n decide nt to reply any sms or return call to him.
ok, again, i noe...my bad........
Then, dad sent mi a sms..

Here is the sms: "when u from primary one to primary six how i treat ?every month i give u $200 until you study primary six and one more thing, whenever u want to buy thing i never object, now u grow up and came out earn money, is this the way u treat me?"

ok i admit i realli need to burst out crying at that point of time, yet i pretend nothin happen n continue my dinner.
i felt like crying cox
1) 99% content is true.
2) He is old and realli disappointed in me
3) i m such a failure daughter

After i reach home, this sms keep bothering mi.
i felt so depress and down.
i am indeed no different from those movie, esp movie by Jack Neo, abandon their parent.
n i make decision ytd night, to cancel my flight to taiwan..though i realli wish to travel with MJ they all..
Right here writing this entry, i m crying again.
i dun think i even have the courage to read this post in future.
Failure person, failure daughter...i am..



Wishing on the same star @ 5:40 PM
Wednesday, September 2, 2009