♥ I cant take the stress at Commercial Dept ♥
Today is the 2nd time i cried in office..
i realli duno wats gg on with all those formula, cost summary report, budgeting, forecasting..omg, wat is all that!?
i tried my best to learn whatever i shd within the 2 weeks time, n i used the word: i did tried my best.
but i failed.
The formula n procedure i jus couldnt make it right..Jasmine is so patience with mi, n i felt so guilty towards her..the more ppl nice to mi, lenient to mi, i jus feel bad..
but thats nothing much i can do except for more pratising n more question throw out to them..
Ever since i took over Commercial Manager's work, i couldnt slp well.
My mind was full of excel sheet every night..all the formula etc..driving mi crazy!
Jasmine told Jon that i m stress n even put in good words for mi in front of Jon..i realli appreciate her help..even on her last day, she insist to stay with mi till 7pm, jus to make sure i realli can cope without her..
Jon talked to mi not long after Jasmine spoke to him..n he is shocked dat i m so stress..i keep apologise to him n told him i did tried my best, but i realli cant do it..
This is also the first time i realised 8 working hrs is not enough for mi.. including coming back on sat wholeday.
i dun even feel hungry at work..my mind is full of formula n deadline.. n i dun go to toilet that often, cox i jus dun wan to waste time walking along the long corridor pathway, my intake of drinking 4 bottles of water decrease to 2 bottle too..n my water bottle is onli 300ml..everyday end up damn thristy but jus continue to sit there n dun wan to move my butt..ya, becox its time consuming to drink water too..i onli drink it while i m saving my files, cox it took few mins to b done. Insane right..
n i find dat eating lunch is a waste of time! though i onli spent 15mins of lunch hr n quickly got bk to my workstation to continue my work..when do i become like this?
But! i must said i learnt a lot during this 2 weeks time, i even imparted some skills to susan..!
i dun regret at all..i did gained valuable experience n skills in this 2 weeks time..
of cox, i wished dat i can stay on at Commercial Dept, the most i shall take longer time to master the skill..
like wat susan said, tried not to self pressure ourselves too much..
i failed to do that, n thats y i m easily defeated.
Come on..jia you ba..
Monday is another new start..
Wishing on the same star @ 11:46 PM
Friday, December 18, 2009
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